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After today everything will come into the end.. I can said tat i reall did loved u deep inside my heart be4. We won't meet up or contact each other tat often like last time anymore.. But i knew e pain will always be there whenever i think of u or saw u.. But as i told u when time is up, i reall will leave both of us alone.. N i guess time is up..
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Perhaps u will think tat i did wrong or y should i need to be like tat or mayb i had said something tat u dun wish to heard.. Mayb u can start to ignore me, hate me or dislike me bah.. But i think tat e best way for both of us.. I dunno hw to face e fact so i just can run away from e fact. Mayb u will think tat y must make until like tat.. You are nt me, u wont know.. Everything seem to at ur control n i am tat game to let u control. U can be good but when time up u will changed to another person n forced me to leave. You never did wrong perhaps is i did wrong to love u tat deep bah.. I will leave u alone as i promised u before when time is up but i never tot it can be tat fast. Pain n hurt can't been stopped. Wat u promise me i think just a word with no meaning.. Had u ever remember wat i told u in ur mind before?.. Had u ever realise i am always there for u?... Had u ever try to give me sometime i mean just sometime?.. Perhaps i am selfish but ain't u too?.. Dun force me to accept ur happiness bah.
Monday, 27 April 2009
A song to describe my feeling now.. haiss..
分手都已过了那么久
现在也有自已的生活
你身边有个人牵着你的手
我们就像是朋友偶尔联络
心情不好你会来跟我说
我安慰你不难过
等你恢复笑容
总是笑着道谢转身走
变成朋友的你和我并不轻松
I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
爱的重量不在我身上
I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
过去不想全部隐藏
就试着遗忘
说
对我诉说你跟他满脸笑容
我微笑地聆听接受
过去的你和我
是否也爱得那么冲动
痛哭好久开心也有让人感动
I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
但是我的心现在却比你还伤
I could see I love you
It hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
让你看透我的心现在我不想
是该说放就放
就试着遗忘
痛苦我会遗忘
只想看你开心的模样
新的恋情让它成长
而过去
就放在心上
One day 3 meals but i just eaten 1 meal each day.. One day at least 6hrs of slping but i just slp less than 6hrs a day.. everyday at least some entertainment for myself after my work but i just knock myself at my room using my laptop n dun wish to tok to anyone or went out.. e cheerful side of ysh is gone n it left just e emo n quiet side of ysh..
cried,hurted,sadded,tried..idunnowatelseicandoanymore..perhapsthereisnothingicando..
Saturday, 25 April 2009
Never lie to someone tat reall love u, if u does, u are just hurting them more badly.. You can tel me e fact but pls dun lie..
Friday, 24 April 2009
Life is only worth living once, you've found someone worth dying for.. I could never regret loving you because even if you didn't love me anymore perhaps you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling because i never thought that i deserved your love. Love isn't all smiles and laughs for the moment. But crying n fighting for what you think is right and will last forever. Loving unconditional mean forgiving and learning to live with it imperfections that is what you love the most. Sometime in love you must accept the fact what make the person you cared about happy and might on the other hand leave you so lonely. True in the world is going wrong, all you have to do is look at that special person and suddenly everything in the world is right again. Love is just a word till someone you meet give it a meaning..
Monday, 20 April 2009
Hais.. Can't figure out wat u thinking sometime.. You can suddenly leave without notice.. Hais..
Sunday, 19 April 2009
My dad went to hospital on Fri, cos he was sick for e past few days but he act as nothing happened in front of me. Haiss.. When i reached home after work on fri, my mum told me tat my dad went to hospital.. Cos he went to c doc at e clinic then e doc checked tat his stomach like got something so asked him go hospital check up.. Then he go himself which i dunno =.=. Then when i reached home, i try to cal him but i can't get him cos his hp was off.. I am damn worried for him, almost wanted to goes crazy.. But i promise to meet them up on fri nite to halo bar.. So actually i at Eric car was acting as nothing happened.. Hais, then after tat around 10 plus my dad called me say he was fine actually nothing inside his stomach.. Then i was very angry i told him y u never told me then he tok in a laugh manner say no worry la, i am fine.. Then he told me sorry le this few days i was sick so no time to help u looked out for ur car.. Hais, i almost drop down my tear.. I know he love me alot since i was young.. He always worry for me ever now i was 23 yrs old he still treat me like a kid. Got one time my hp low batt n i forgotten to cal back n told my mum i will be staying at my fre hus.. He very worry n asked my mum try to find my fre contact number, n end up he called one of my fre to find me. Ever tot tat time i was already 22 yrs old, n before i went to Cruise he told me reached sg first person to cal must be him.. He will never scold me since young, wat i wanna he always try to give me ever he had no much money when i was young.. N when i was kid tat time he pei me to c doc when i was having a high fever tat time.. But i feel bad, cos he was sick i also dun ever noticed.. Hais, tat night i was rather sad.. When i was toking abt this issue with my fre i almost cried. But i still holding my tear, i think i fail to be a good daughter after all.. Hais..
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
SPEED cover CD is out.. ^^ 
Saturday, 11 April 2009
Halo bar tonight again.. Lols.. We are addicted in there liao, jialat.. Yester bbq was fun, but i was kana shoot by them n asked some funny question by them also.. Reading through my passed thing i blogged, i think got 90% is all abt ur stuff bah.. Mayb i am just a person tat dun wish to try on something tat i dun have feeling on de bah.. Many ppl told me no harm trying but i just can't force myself to do. No feeling mean no feeling bah. I may feel alone n all by myself sometime but i just dun need someone to be at my side just cos i am alone so i need someone to be there for me, if like tat i rather to be alone than hurting another person i dun love. Mayb ppl say tat love can develop when time passed but hw can it develop when there are still someone inside ur heart ??.. Perhaps the stubborn me just always getting hurt on myself of thinking in tat way bah. Haiss.. I am missing u badly now.. How bad a missing can be.. My mind is all abt u now.. Sigh...
Friday, 10 April 2009
Good Friday everyone.. ^^ Going for bbq tonight with my ex classmate, long time never saw them le but they always said i am rather busy but actually i am nt ok!.. Hmmm.. They already from Mon keep remind me abt e bbq thing till yester, scare i will forget sia =.=''.. N still gt ppl said if u never come u will be dead sia.. Wa, scarly rite my classmate.. lolss.. I think tonight will be having a war fight rather than bbq bah.. HAHA.. Cos i am sure i will get bully by them, lolss.. Somemore PZ may nt be going, hai no one will be there to bbq for me.. HAHA.. But hopefully tonight we will be having fun bah ^^.. Alrite i guess i will be having a long holiday bah, cos tomor my customer side didn't open which mean i dun need to go back to work.. But still thinking whether to go back to work anot.. Haa, alrite SPEED single will be out on 27-May.. Can't wait for their single to be out.. I LOVE THEM.. Perhaps mayb ppl will think they become old after 10yrs they return back but to me they are still as pretty as before.. ^^
Friday, 3 April 2009
It's Friday again.. Erm, actually got many thing to write to say but dunno hw to start also.. Hais, MC 2 days, actually from Mon already started to sick but hang on till thur then went to c doc but tomor need to go back to work again.. I dun think gt much thing to do tomor but my company gt a bit crazy they like ppl to show their face on sat, tat wat my manager think la. I think she was rather funny bah mayb she is jealous tat she need to go work on every sat so need us to accompany her to come back.. But wat e point if u go back there is nothing to do n waste company OT money there?.. I feel lame sometime but can't help tat my company.. ^^ I feel everything suck today. I should stop u from going today but i didn't.. WHY?.. I dunno also.. Hais, if i stop u will listen??.. Won't bah cos i know u, if u wanna nobody can stop u from doing tat.. Perhaps we are just in a cycle bah.. i love u, u love her.. When can ysh wake up??.. Sigh.. Alrite today do a quiz on 你是否活在過去？in face book i think is miss leow send me tat quiz de bah.. Actually feel e answer was quite true somehow..
The result is B '毫 不 自 覺 活 在 過 去'
可 能 你 還 沒 有 意 識 到 ， 你 一 直 生 活 在 過 去 。 過 往 的 記 憶 會 悄 悄 回 到 你 的 腦 海 中 ， 分 散 你 的 注 意 力 。 也 許 過 去 有 些 經 歷 值 得 你 細 細 回 味 ， 而 這 些 年 來 ， 你 並 沒 有 把 自 己 從 回 憶 中 釋 放 出 來 ， 或 者 告 訴 自 己 ： 「 別 傻 了 ， 就 這 樣 順 其 自 然 吧 ！ 」 你 不 像 自 己 認 為 的 那 樣 理 性 ， 你 總 是 不 自 覺 地 受 到 過 去 的 影 響 。 仲 可 以 點 ？ 多 給 自 己 一 些 空 間 來 探 索 真 正 的 想 法 和 感 受 ， 你 會 發 現 有 不 同 的 結 果 。
Isn't true i should let go e past n look forward??..