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It's fridayss.. Hmmmm... Dunno y today feel just nt right dunno is going to sick or something going to happen.. Hais.. Sigh, mood so down dunno y also.. Keep went to e toilet today from morning till nw, think kana food poisoning sia. But tomor still need to go back to work. Haiss.. Sigh again.. Oh ya, today after my work i take 963 back home. On e bus i stand behind n i saw a ah peck sitting there wa, dunno y i feel he look so much alike my ah gong. E way he dress n his hairstyle, haha.. Perhaps i am missing ah gong too much le bah. E fact he already leave me n went to a far far place. But dunno y tat moment i suddenly think of him at e hospital again, perhaps ah gong is still e one i am missing so much.. :(
ps: wat ur mind thinking??.. i never know cos u never will let me know. dun understand u perhaps i reall dun understand u..
Thursday, 26 February 2009
对你是失望多过难过... 面对你我还是骗不了我自己,心还是被你动摇了..
Sunday, 22 February 2009
不管以后会怎样或你会做出什么决定，我都会等你。。反正我已经习惯等你的感觉了，能够等你已经是一种幸福了。我从来都不觉得自己傻，因为有很多人也许一辈子都碰不到一个值得等待的人。但我已经碰到了。
Saturday, 21 February 2009
Alrite thur went to watched e show called 'The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button' was abt 3 hrs show, but i feel tat show was rather nice n meaningfully.. Dunno hw to explain e show but was rather reality bah.. Hmm.. Was like a cycle of life bah we need to went through. HAHA.. Got one part which e gal's mum was going to die n laying on e hospital.. Dunno y suddenly think of my ah gong tat time at hospital holding my hand.. Haiss.. It quite a nice show la worth to watch..
PS: Step back now before it went too deep again.. I can't get myself those hurts anymore.. Feeling kills somehowss..
Friday, 20 February 2009
Haiss.. Knowing u are unhappy in the past few days, but i just can't help u much.. Seeing u like just acting to be normal was rather hurtful inside my heart.. Mayb sometime life to u, just dun seem much important but to me ur life mean alot to me.. I rather hope to c ur cheerful side than e emo side of u.. Perhaps tat person who made u laugh won't be me but tat does not matter, matter is I WANNA U TO BE HAPPY..
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Alrite it wedss again, 3 more days to weekends.. Yeah!! But nt much different as weekdays also la haha.. Yester was rather good cos from morning started sms u till night bah. Never suddenly gone disappear, perhaps ur mood was good yester bah.. Haa, but good thing never last long tat for sure.. Perhaps yester was just a bonus for me bah.. Yester suddenly fever at nite n today late for work, overslept.. So tired nw.. =.='' Gtg for a nap at my lunch time.. Cya..
Tuesday, 17 February 2009
Long time no update.. Went to Zouk last sat which was valentine's day haha.. Those 'single' de us went to Zouk.. Oh actually nt reall all 'single' la, lolss.. E night was suck.. HAHA.. Music damn boring dun feel like dancing.. Plus i never drink much tat day, sound surprise??.. Haa, maybe tat time at dbo drink too much till nw still dun dare to drink much.. I just drink abt or almost nt more than 3 cups.. It's true lo.. Lolss.. I won't step in Zouk again, damn boring.. We went off abt 2am, early rite??.. First time go clubbing so early went home.. Upload some pic taken by hy tat night.. HAHA..
Thursday, 12 February 2009
HAHA.. For so long, doctor yeo still stuck on tat only same patient she had.. HAHA, was rather unbelievable bah.. Hmm.. Another year passed again, guess i had waited for abt 3yrs le bah.. Dun ask me y cos i also had no answer for tat.. lols.. Perhaps i started to get use to single lifestyle i having nw n was reather happy for wat i am now.. HAHA.. Nothing will be change for now.. Further??.. I nt sure but rite now everything still remain as wat it was at e past 3yrss.. And this word had been there forever--> (,") happy mean (".) happy..
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
It’s was wed again.. Ah gong still e person i will miss at least once a day. Dunno y i had a strong feeling he just beside me always.. Perhaps ur guy will say i am mad but i just feel tat he was around alway.. I wondering where is ah gong nw? Living in somewhere tat was rather far from me n watching me??.. I guess so.. Dunno hw long i will still missing my ah gong but i am sure ah gong will live inside my heart forevers..
Monday, 9 February 2009
It's a brand new week again, haiss.. Everything just dun seem to be important to me anymore. I know i still miss ah gong alot n dun wish to accept tat was a fact tat he was gone n won't be back again.. But i still need to accept it cos tat was still the fact i still need to face it. I dunno hw to pull myself up perhaps there still need sometime to do so bah. Acting happy in front of my fre cos i dun wish them to worry for me but when i was alone, my mind just can't stop thinking tat ah gong had leave me n wont be back anymore.. Thx for my fre who went back n accompany me for those few days.. Ah gong, i still miss u alotss..
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
Everything just too late, i hated myself.. If i never went for lesson yester nite at least i still can c ah gong e last time. Ah gong leave without letting us c his last step of his story.. Perhaps he dun wish us to be sad bah.. My mind keep flashed e moment i holded his hand n he holded mine with both our tear inside our eyes.. I could never had e chance to hold his hand anymore.. I could never had e chance to cal him ah gong anymore.. Ah gong i reall miss u alot.. Y u choose to leave without letting me c u e last time.. Gong, u are reall someone who treated everyone of us included my cousin my gugu my dad n my mum very good.. U are someone tat always think abt other first than urself, u are someone who keep worry whether we are hungry anot.. Your everything will keep inside my heart forevers.. Goodbye my beloved ah gong..
Sunday, 1 February 2009
Today finally saw my ah gong open his eyes.. Holding on his hand n he holding my hand back, tear of mine can't hold it anymore. I felt tat was e best thing in tat moments, i hope tat moments can stop.. Look rather drama but tat was rather reality. Tear in my ah gong eyes, i know he can't tok but he was very touch to c us around..
PS: Perhaps time reall make us apart, wat i mean n hope dun mean wat u say.. But i dun wish to explain much just a sorry.. Perhaps both of us can't understand each other much anymore..